Monday, March 22, 2010

Day #2

Tyler was my first baby to have outside of Salt Lake, away from all my friends and family. I’ll admit, after my first two births, I felt overwhelmed by the amount of family that came to see me at the hospital and after. This time would be different. I would be distanced from my close siblings, proud grandparents, loving parents, and thoughtful friends. I am sure this created some anxiety, but I also felt excitement to share that time with just my husband.

My sister had planned to buy the first ticket to come help me after having my baby. When my water broke that unforgettable Easter morning, I felt a new desperation to get her here as soon as possible. Looking back, I can not imagine how I would have emotionally and physically coped without my sister hopping on that first flight out of Salt Lake. Equally as wonderful was her husband Thomas. He had not planned on coming, but after hearing about the birth of our new little one, he felt an urgency to be there as well. That was not a cheap plane ticket either, but I knew that price was not going to hold Thomas back. He knew he wanted to be with us, and what a blessing he was; not just for Dave and I, but especially for Josh and Maddie. Having Kate and Thomas with us took a load of pressure off Dave. He was only allowed a few days off at the hospital and he knew I needed the extra help while he was at work.

The week of Tyler’s birth could very well have been one of the hardest weeks of my life if Kate and Thomas had not come. I will always think of my little sister as truly being an angel, a strength, and my source of peace and comfort following Tyler’s birth. The most wonderful gift Kate and Thomas gave me that week was the purest and most tender love they gave Tyler as they held him and rocked him and kissed him. I think they had more love for him at that point than I did. They helped me see him for who he was. I wanted so desperately to hold him and love him in that same way. I was trying to sort out a mixture of confusing emotions. I was scared that my love for Ty was going to be different and not as strong as my bond to my other babies. The sincere and pure love showed to me by my younger sister showed me the way.

1 comment:

Natalie R. said...

How wonderful that your sister and her husband were able to make it out! It's great to have such strong support at such an important time, and I'm glad it wasn't overwhelming this time, too. :0)